The Alexandra

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 06:36:46 GMT

new lj new lj new lj!

i dont know why but i decided i needed a change and since its uber easy now to get one...i have...gotten one...a new one...but i think i'll still post on both...because i am le loser.

but its: a_cat_named_cat

because im in love with breakfast at tiffanysand everything else was taken. even "The Mean Reds" which made me sad. theyre a band. but thats not fair. i dont like it. but its okay. it was gonna be holly golightly but there were two different versions and so there was no way to get around it. but i like mine. the end. ooh if only i could get a picture of dog as my icon...oh jess...i miss dog.

and scene. goodnight for real now.

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 05:17:04 GMT

Which Historical Lunatic Are You?
From the fecund loins of Rum and Monkey.

interesting...

soo overall an okay weekend, even though it was spent indoors.

i think i got food poisoning at reubens. but jess thinks not. and probably, shes right.

im glad tomorrow is a no school day, even though i have mucho work to do. and i have rehearsal, although i dont know when.

how does one spell paper mache? is it like that with an accent thingy? i never knew how to get those on the compness.

aaand...scene.

for now.

ps, i hope get to go prom shopping tomorrow, it would be tre exciting (exciting here is said with a french accent, just to let ya know.)

and goodnight.

love alex

i think i remember the film

Sun, 18 Jan 2004 05:11:12 GMT

pretty good night. cyn + me + election = a good film watchin' time.

im so tired now though, its like insane, and i did hardly anything today. i dont know. im gettin' old.

the fact that its a three day weekend makes me so incredibly happy that i cant even understand it. its just so nice. not even that we get a third day off, but that we only have four days of school next week does it too. plus, then is skiing and that makes me happy in the heart, though i will miss the jesica immensely.

oh so today = a really fun trip to yonkers. NOT. WHO DOES THAT??

but anyway. passing out fliers was good. wait. fliers or flyers? i guess flyers would be people who fly and stuff. but it looks more right to me. anyway. yeah so it was okay, at least when we went to put things up in nail salons. i liked those ones the best =)

and i said what about breakfast at tiffanys?
she said i think i remember the film
and as i recall i think we both kinda liked it
and i said well thats one thing weve got

i like that he keeps adding stuff on with "and." i like it a lot actually, though i cant explain why.

oh and on the way home from cyns, two deer crossed over from...some street and over webster and into the woods. that made me really happy to. in an unexplainable way. it just did. maybe it was like nature at its most glorious...or something. but t was really quite beatiful. and i definately was smiling the rest of the way home.

gnight.

you'll say weve got nothin in common, no common ground to start from, yeah we're fallin' apart...

good song.

tonight

Sat, 17 Jan 2004 06:11:08 GMT

manohman. tonight was an okay night.

the day=horrible. it was so bad and i felt so sick and i didnt go to rehearsal again and i felt really bad but i really was having a bad day plus i was coughin up a lung plus i felt like i was gonna pass out and shit for a lot of it. and then casey called and we went out for like an hour and then i still didnt feel so hot so i went home and jess and i had a good chick flick night and it was excellent because i really needed to just stay hjome and relax. when harry met sally and sweet home alabama = very good but very love hurting movies.

and i was sad. but it was happy cuz theyre good.

and the end. tomorrow is flyers which should be good...i hope people show up...but cyn and mikey and i can do it im sure. anyhoot.

its a long weekend and i needed it. im so glad its here.

and scene.

love forever and always alex.

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 04:38:33 GMT

why do girls become so emotional right before they get their periods? i mean, i understand PHYSICALLY why, the hormone...stuff...but why? i mean, whats the point?

every friggin time they had a baby shot on ER tonight i was about to cry-and if anyone else saw it-totally cried when the little girl was like "hi, im Miranda, I'm your big sister"

and UUUH. and everything. and then im okay. and then im not. god its like im pregnant. so emotional. WHYY

i love friends. the show and the people.

alex

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 22:00:08 GMT

aint too proud to beg sweet darlin

anyhoot.

today was a very blah day. which i enjoyed. minus teh coughness.

but i feel bad for my jessica because shes even sicker than i am and she had to go to school and that is the unfair.

and now i must finish my essay for sack.

but i'll wait a little while longer.

so allegedly i missed some interesting film today...

okay. and thats it for now. love you all much. LATA

alex!

i have a paper to write...

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 02:57:21 GMT

Pick ANY 20 LJ users on your friends list. Without revealing their names, say something about (or to) each one of them. Never reveal who is what.

1. youre not the best driver...but neither is that friend of kavehs
2. cant wait for the skiingness at 1020
3. if i ever get up to wocester, we're so going to my pizza place
4. diva. oh wait, wasnt supposed to say the name, right?
5. wait so is it sanchar? sanjar?
6. what would i do without you?? (especially when i wanna hug some teddy bears...)
7. im sorry! i dont like sushi!
8. too bad i dropped AP stat..
9. you ARE a senior...that one might be obvious...shh...
10. where the funny things are!
11. WHERE ARE MY LEGS?
12. i definately hope you find yourself in a numbed state again at nystea...
13. rocka rcka rocka rockafella plazaa
14. eddie gheen is so hot...wait...
15. i am not trash.
16. ahh i miss being stuck in traffic with lazer beams...
17. maybe i wont miss cw next gym day...
18. you pinky swore me. you big fat liar.
19. im definately coming to visit you..definately
20. and, of course, RAVI SHANKAR MONKEY BALLS

well that was really not all that fun...but shh...

i was sick today. but i was in school. and now i must write an essay for sacky...and i dont want to...ah well.

aand...scene....

away messages

Mon, 12 Jan 2004 03:30:27 GMT

the guy i fall in love with will never have the away message "i am away from my computer."

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why does no one live by the saying "whatever happens happens"? thats so weird. its such a good philosophy to live by, i mean maybe not with like "nuclear war" or whatever but in love and everyday life...to keep from worrying...but no one abides by it. i say it all the time and i dont. why not? how strange.

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how come we cant run away together? or spend some time forever? why cant we avoid feeling bad forever more?

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God's playing a joke on us all: paint markers smell really good and get you addicted. but theyre really really terrible for you. thats not fair at all. (not to mention all the really good but really fattening food out there. WHAT IS THAT??)

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how did bush get into the presidency again? that one i rreeaallllyy dont understand. oh well.

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and, finally, does anyone SERIOUSLY think elmo is cute? i mean, doesnt anyone else see his freakish qualities? i, frankly, think he has seriously damaged my view of sesame street.
and puppets

Wed, 07 Jan 2004 07:01:03 GMT

i finished guys, for those who care, just over 1500 words. HOLLER.

im sorry...for a lot of stuff, but especially the length of this...

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 06:26:07 GMT

okay, i made a tiny, very shortly lasting mistake at the luau while quite intoxicated. And if you (the person this is directed to) are reading this, please dont be angry. Maybe i can fix it...somehow...maybe...
love always alex

and now to the rest of the world:
vacation is over. we officially have school. TODAY. and by we i meant everyone still in high school except for people who are sick or loaded with work and who are not attending.
vacation is over.
and its sad.
and its funny because i was talking to john and i was like uuh i cant wait until next year when i have off as much time as you. and then he was all yeah but next year youre probably gonna wanna stay at college. and thats so weird. but probably true. god i wanna be out. but anyway: vacation

soo i dont remember a lot of it, except i think i remember parties, i know i remember drinking and i definately remember the mornings after.
dans was the first friday after a dissapointing view of mona lisa smile with jess, and that was a pretty good time, ish. and then i dont remember a lot except i was sick for a while.
the first monday was jon and lauras where cara jenn laura and myself attatched ourselves to each other and learned crazy things about san...someone...and there was charades with a scary andrew and then sleep.
wednesday was christmas eve and that was a good time-all dressed up for five oclock mass and then back to our house for a not so traditional night. los of drinking, LOTS of smoking and many-an-embarrassing-story about my childhood. or the favorite child's childhood, any of the three of them (jays nicks or jess's) and then midnight mass which is always fun (especially after meeting my very attractive neighbor even though i had sweaty hands but its okay right jess??) and then christmas morning which was filled with happiness and love and presents as materialistic as that is, and then sleeping through most of the morning and then more drinking and smoking and the like at my cousins house.
friday was the city with jess, and more smoking if you hadnt already guessed, and then wandering the streets with nick and being at grand central thrice in one day and then driving around with brian and nick and jess smoking and owning 7-11 and "making the papers" the next day. haha. jess.
nd then other stuff, oh wait thats when i got sick i think. or maybe it was both weekends. i dont know. but then whatever...new years eve...luau...much fun indeed, good people, good music, good everything and i got to kiss like 10 people at midnight...but the first one was, you guessed it, jess.
new years day i got up arund 4, went to dunkin donuts with jess where we wondered why everyone was already dressed. and then realized it was almost five. oh.
another tiny shin dig that night and then friday was my cousins again with michelle, and that night people walked on my back and it was amazing and we now have words for all of the alphabet...shh..it makes sense...and then saturday was the diner and bridget and our spot and my house and drunkenness and smoking. and it wasnt too bad.
and then today was one flew over the cuckoos nest, which was really good, and then an entire day of mtv shows. and then jess and smoking. i know you were all waiting for that. those of you who actually read all of this. which is really sad if you did. no im just kidding. (no im not)
and so vacation is over, but its not terrible. we'll live. especially with the idea in our minds (some of us) that next year we'll have more time off and WANT to go back.
and scene
gnight all. sleep well, get lots of rest, and pick out something comfy for tomorrow, itll be a long day.

Sun, 14 Dec 2003 07:08:30 GMT

its just so old. im tired of it. i really am. and i dont understand it. but it always happens this way. always. and i feel stupid complaining about it. but i do. i just wanna curl up and sleep forever.

so apparantly everyones doing this?

Fri, 12 Dec 2003 01:30:13 GMT

dearest alex-
stop liking him. it cant happen for ten years. and help casey and sheena with their "project." maybe. and have sex soon. and get drunk this weekend. and get "him" really intoxicated and make love to him like its your job.haha i love you case. and maybe get a job. but maybe dont because your lazy.
love, the inner alex who is forced to live vicariously through other people. and by other people, i mean jess.

alexx-
make a fort and play hovercraft likeyou used to when you were little and in MA for new years. and have fun. and write stories about danny marrying aliens.
love your inner child
ps. milk shakes are good. have them more often.

dear alex-
meet and marry prince harry the next time you go to london. it will be lovely.
sincerely yours, your inner princess

yo, alex. go find a boy and be a slut. werd.
dopey

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everyone-
so thats my story. man am i schizophrenic. no maybe not.
anyway, today was good. and i love sheena and john and even bruno even though he made me walk ALL THE WAY TO DNKIN DONUTS. heff. but yeah. but after going there that first time and seeing boys...it made me want one SO bad. i mean, not like for eternity, but just for like a night. oh man. its been too long. over a month. and the last time...oh yucky.

anyway. this weekend will be good, because i have deemed it so.

and OH and i got a 90 on my gov project. holler back. and thats it. and, later.

love forever, the actual alex

queston: what is it that everybody wants and pirates and theives try and take?
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DA BOOTY! ahahaha yayy.

maybe?

Mon, 01 Dec 2003 23:25:54 GMT

Which O.C. Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

thats more than a little true at times i think. sorry im not writing with proper capitalization for anyone who cares (coughnickcoughcough)
anyhoot. im glad i dont have a lead in antigone, i think itll be fun to be the peanut gallery-and by the peanut gallery i mean the-senior- who-adds-in-unneccessary-remarks-that-make-her-laugh-even-if-they- dont-make-anyone-else-laugh-peanut-gallery.

i guess thats all for now. LATER

hanksgiving and the day after

Sat, 29 Nov 2003 07:04:42 GMT

i love my family plus jess too much. thanksgiving this year was by far the best ever and i had an amazing time. 3 sours, 3 glasses of port, lots of cigarettes and a cigar. all with my family. plus katie on jays shoulders going AHHHHH and the "pleeeeaase" oh god. it was so great. plus plus just everything. and then the wonderful infrmation that my brother tells me when hes intoxicated. those are some good times. i havent stopped smiling i dont think.

then tonight was caseys, hapy birthday casey, and that was good...a little "separated" as robin put it...but...good...and then lauras and seeing jon and zack and shawn and glick and everyone good ever. it was nice. made me feel young again, but it wsa nice. i miss them so much more than i remembered. god. but it was a good time.

i have to say im a little sad about some things. but theyre happy things in that paradoxical sort of way. its just so...im not sure. its good...and yet...yeah...oh well...thats what norah jones is for, right? of course right.

and godnight.

Tue, 25 Nov 2003 04:07:17 GMT

CaseGuy 13: you should totally get him intoxicated, extremely intoxicated and make love to him like it's your job

and this is why i love the quesito.

i am being happier in the heart right now. and david, thank you, i love you like whoa.

so

Tue, 11 Nov 2003 08:04:29 GMT

so. mnutes after posting i realize. im not even just afraid of rejection. oh no. im afraid of getting into the relationship. and tehn it ending. or worse it sucking. or no worse. it being wonderful and having him end it. i cant even get into it. because im not only afraid of not being able to get into it. but im already afraid of what it will be or what the eventual outcome will be. god. and i want to say "whats wrong with me" but the worst part is that nothings wrong with it. its completely normal, i think. but that makes me feel worse. i hate that other people get to complain this way. and i hate that its so run of the mill when i do. it sounds so stupid. and yet its there. i dont know. ::deep breath::

hey remember that time i was almost in love and then didnt have the guts to get into the relationship and then didnt have the hypothetical guts to last in it? i do. good times.

for the longest time

Tue, 11 Nov 2003 07:54:41 GMT

so im officially that pathtetic human being who regrets everything but does nothing about it and then gets depressed over it. yes folks im unrequitedly in love and its absolutely positively sucky. ps, if youre in love with someone, or possibly in lvoe with someone or just have relatively strong feelings for someone, dont go see "love actually." great movie but god its depressing for other pathetic human beings such as myself.

its not even like anything could have happened this weekend. but i just want it to have. or i dont. and i want to have that feeling. that feeling where i could and i can actually believe that it might, you know?

its rediculous. to feel this way. about someone i dont even know all that well. but how many guys are the kind who owuld wake you up only because its your favorite tunnel on the way back from virginia, especially when youve been sleeping cock-eyes with youre mouth half open and head back looking disgusting.how many guys do that? probably all the best ones who just are being nice. or the gay ones.

i havent felt this for the longest time..which is a lie...but thats the song...and then in the car...and yeah.

gnight kids.

dont go see love actually unless youre with teh one in love or theres someone to potentially be in love with and have love you back out there. im serious. no, really, i am.

gnight.

alex

ugh

Sat, 09 Aug 2003 04:40:24 GMT

i feel awful. not physically or anything. but menatally. i did something she would do. but worse. and i feel bad about it. but the worse part is:not that bad. maybe i do. it wasnt right though. and i shouldnt have. and id asay the other person involved shouldnt have either; but it was more my fault. whatever. i guess we'll both live. but it doesnt make me feel so much better.

scotland tomorrow! love you much all goodnight.

anyhoot. thats it for now. i love you all too much. maybe not TOO too much. but whatever. gniiiight.

alexx

fuck this shit much?

Tue, 22 Jul 2003 02:13:37 GMT

maan, a lot of you saw me at rehearsal. i was in a fucking great mood. and i got home, and i still was. and it was an hour past when i expected her call, and i still was. and then: not so much.

tonight was suppsoed to be fucking amazing; i was supposed to finally get drunk tehw ay ive wanted to teh whole summer, or at least somewhat. i was supposed to see that asshole i work with...i was supposed to have a good time. it was supposed to be one of those nights that i remember, that really does make these years the "best"

but then i didnt get the call

and my good mood was shattered only to reveal the bad mood inside. poetic, i know.

i need to go out. even know, at 1015, im fucking ready to go out: all dressed up with no place to go.

whatever.

so anyway, how are you?

maybe theres a good reason. maybe not. i guess all will come out in the morrow. goodnight my lovelies.

alex

ps, i was suppsoed to make a sentimental post, but now i am not apparantly. but jess i love you much and i'll miss you except not since im packing you up and youre coming with me.

much love all, and goodnight.

oh i love my life yet i hate it

Mon, 14 Jul 2003 05:33:17 GMT

so, its 130 in hte morning...one wouldnt expect her brother and two of his friends...one of them naturally brian and the other rather attractive to come to our house for a bathroom break...but they did...

brian came in and sat with me..and secretly made fun of my for watching prince charming...the tnt movie with martin short...that wasnt embarassing what are YOU talking about...

and then he invited me alone...but i said no...HA...mostly cuz i have work in the morning...and as i contemplated i could feel nicks secretly angry stare boaring its irate rays into my head...so i declined...the other one was attractive too...anyway...i enjoyed it...and i wasnt really dumb...and there wasnt anything in my teeth...and my hair looked good...and...yeah.

im just glad i hadnt already gone to sleep.

of course then i went into the bathroom where the other friend had been...i left a panty liner and tampon in there...smooth, no? haha anyway...im going to watch the end of this movie...much love...goodnight

wow, too many "..."'s no? i think so. alrighty, gniiight

aleexx

i dunno if it was a bad night or a great one...you decide...

Thu, 10 Jul 2003 06:55:59 GMT

i am so sorry to do this to you but i can promise you now that this will be a long long loooong story/entry. like for real...

so it all started when mallory called me at 630 to go see her friends show phone/sex/cancer my parents were mad i was going since i went out last night, but i was still able to go. if id be home by 1230.

so we go an we get to the city (its on east 4th) and we park around the theatre-we're not sure if its an okay place to park, but we thought wed be back by ten or soon after...so it wouldnt be a problem...keep that in mind...

so we go in, front row,and the show was really good-totally different from anything ive seen and really interesting, etc. i met almost the entire cast afterwards and we all go out to eat. i smoked a lot and drank ginger ale (never a good combination with me it would seem but thats a story for another time) we're all leaving and so mallory and i walk back to the car.

but we find ourselves way past where we thought the car was parked. we go back a little and see just where the car had once been parked, adn the sign with rules for parking. the car was definately not there. so we call 411 and then call the nearest precinct or whatever and then get the number for the place that probably towed her car. they have it. its at 38th and 12th. we take a cab with the little money we have left. but mallory had left her keys so we went back some and retrieved them (still there surprisngly) and hten get back in the cab. this is wheni got sick from the whole ginger ale thing. not entirely relevant but shh. the guy dropped us in the wrong place and gave us wrong directions. we then meet a police officer who is of NO use whatsoever and eventually we find it.

the line there is huge-well not huge but a few people and everyone takes a while and our thing was takin a while and finally we were gonna be able to get it. we go and we have to wait for an attendednt who then has tot ake mallory to her car without me which was weird and pick me up and finally we were out. now heres where it gets really good.

so first we pull up to this guy who actually seemed really nice and was hitting on us, though his friend seemed totally disinterested and it was funny but we lost them pretty fast. as we're nearing the GW (by the way i had already called tot ell my parents id be later and why-they werent mad or anything, no worries)and we hit a HUGE amount of traffic. and i mean huge. so we're a little upset cuz it seems everythings not going to well, you know? but then we pull up next to this car adn the guys start hitting on us.

maan it was soooo funny, we talked to them for a really long time and let em tell you they were so creeepy. drunk driver mark and lorenzo. im casey according to them and mallory is now samantha., we told them we were underage, and we told them we were lesbians and they tried tog et in on it stilll and then they told us they were gay which was so obciously a lie...and they kept hitting on us and pulling up next to us and etc and it was so funny but, you know, also incredibly creepy. haha two permits equal a license. good times. anyway so thats pretty much the end of that...

mallory ahs this vaporizing gun though that she got at a toy store with cool noises and an orange light. lt me tell you we amused ourselves so much. we vaporized everyone around us and we made lots of sort of rfeinds. mosr people smiles. except teh japanese businessman. and the pearl jam guys who also tried to hit on us we're "weird" apparantly-hello, they like pearl jam...even if they deny it... but maaan we zapped eevryone adn made lots of new friends and i think, or at least hope we made some peoples nights. cuz that traffic was awful man. but maaaan it wwas suuuch a good time. maybe its not as funny here. but it was sooo great. so great. i mean the car towing and teh very expensive charge and ticket on top of that (oh eyah, in traffic we ran into another guy who had been at the traffic department place and he was all "ticket on top of fee!" too.

but manohman. i got home at about two. after i think we may have missed my exit. it was a good time though. in the end at least.

anyway now its almost 3 and i should go to bed. work in the morning. goodnight kids

aleeexx

good times

Tue, 08 Jul 2003 01:35:53 GMT

so the weekend was lovely. beach and flea market and movies and cute funny boys who talk to me more...and by "to me more" i mean "to emily more" probably but shhh.

and then good presents and i love my parents. and then the lighthouse and then bumming a cigarette which was probably pot infested since the kid who gave it to me i later saw on a motorized tricycle that it hink he stole.

and then fireworks which was nice and i pretended were just for me since they were on sunday and long ice cream lines and then a very lovely rendition of 3 am by one of the nicest strangers ever with two romanian fellows. it was a good birthday. it was a good weekend. and the ponds were fun. and the beach was so great. i miss it like whoa.

and then getting up at 5 this morning so we could get back in time for work. that i didnt like so much. i was so tired-this kid matt actually saw me and, ya know, told me i look like death-always fun to hear. and then i came home and i saw my brother who did not wish me a happy birthday but who i forgive because i love him and hes giving me a pack or two for my birthday. not the most expensive present, not by any means-but totally enjoyable and something i'll really use.

then, though...he didnt get offline...and elt me fall asleep until nine which i really liked. i hadnt wanted to do anything tonight, no really nick, its cool. please, i havent been online since thursday, andi slept the whole week before that so i havent really seen my friends in like two weeks, except for emily but shh, and, its cool, cuz i didnt want to see them again, really. oh wait.

whatever, im not really mad at him, just a little pissed off. probably no one would have been online anyway, or wouldnt have wanted to do anything. but to try would have been, ya know, nice. whatever though. the weekend was so good and i wouldnt change it for anything.

later kids.

alex

and ps-jess i love you soo much. the cards were lovely. youre the bestest friend ever.

yeah

Thu, 26 Jun 2003 05:50:57 GMT

i hate getting this way.

im sorry if im mean to anyone.

in a bad mood.

needin' some lovin.

haha i said lovin. do though. eh whatever.

summer has so much potential. i should really try to enjoy it for what it is.

gnight kids.

aleex

stole the gnight kids from jess. who i havent seen lately. sad face. love you all. gnight.

Sat, 14 Jun 2003 05:14:03 GMT

cuz im leaving on a jet plane.
dont know when i'll be back again.

i kidna love them a lot

Mon, 09 Jun 2003 02:09:05 GMT

i love my parents so much. like i really do. i was so upset lately about just everything and school and shit, even though its almost over. and i mean i didnt talk to them about it all tonight, but i talked about some stuff. some stuff that i thought they would be totally against, like deferring for a year from college to just see what else is out there and shit and at first they were like um, no, and then i guess they realized iw as serious and they were really supportive. they were saying how they thought if i wasnt going to be happy in college and iw ere tog et out after four years and have really hated it that they would rather me not do it, or take off a year to make sure it IS what i want to do. i dunno, it was just reallly great, and im glad i talked tot ehm about it, and im glad that this year is almost over and that they already know this marking period was a shitty one. i mean im still going to work hard next eyar, but theres so much less pressure in doing so now, i dunno. its nice though. and the three essays, the paper adn the research for american that i have to do tonight-im okay with it and its happy.

the weekend was good, well, ish, and i am sorry. but i had a good time today and i hope you did too. and i love everyone who i spent time with even those i didnt and youre all lovely people.

and i think thats it. goodnight for now kids.

aleeex